I did something yesterday that I do just a few times a year; I went on a train-journey, and I want to thank God for the way He provided for me. Although enjoyable it was looking to be a bit of a challenging day, so I said to Him: “Please could I have a Scripture for the day, or more than one?” And what unread messages do I open before I go? This one with a tonne of Bible-verses in, and this reminder about grace. They really helped.
If you remember my post about the 2 questions I asked God, you’ll know why fear bothers me, and yet it’s been a weakness of mine. My big struggle has been a phobia of dogs. On the train about halfway through my outward journey, a dog barked. It was a few seats in front of me; I didn’t know exactly where, and I didn’t know whether the owner would let it walk around the train a bit. I stiffened a little, but then I decided to get out the Bible-verse I had carried in my handbag for a month or so – the one that says I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I kept it in my hand for a while, and again this really helped – just to have a tangible reminder. When I felt my body tense up, I told myself: “I can do ALL things, even being on a train with dogs, through Christ who gives me strength.” Eventually I put the card away and sat there quite normally, which was a miracle and I don’t say that lightly.
I got to where I needed to be and was all for doing what I could while I was there to do it, but once we’d done the most important things, my friend said: “I just want to chat to you for a bit.” Then God answered my morning’s prayer again and I thought of Martha and Mary. Just sitting with one another is important too.
On the way back, when a train had stopped at the platform and no member of staff came to help me onto it, a lovely lady heading for the same train said: “You’re welcome to get on with me.” And when we had to wait for police to remove someone from the train, even though thanks to recent events in Boston my first thought was terrorism, I had complete peace that it was going to be ok. We soon found it was just someone trying to get out of paying for his ticket.
So, don’t tell me God doesn’t care, because I probably won’t believe you.